stay strong

Hello May... Life's been going a little too fast recently I am trying hard to catch up with many things, which inevitably involves schoolwork and socializing. 

I wish to express my feelings as much as I could but I don't have so many words and time for it. Forgive me that this will be a messy post.

I took a humanities course this semester and have been working on that piece of essay since a few weeks ago (trust me, it's not easy to persuade yourself) so I've been in intimate contact with the spiritual self and have become very emotional (not usually used to describe oneself but whatever) I started listening to songs which bring nostalgic memories and experiencing sadness originating from helplessness. The realization that moments are never permanent; that feelings, memories and things have to be experienced and left as time passes; that there's no way to stop this feeling but feeling it.

So life's been really busy. The semester is coming to an end and summer break is starting soon. I hate how I didn't have plans for it and how I hate commitments but somehow need a companion. I wanted to spend the break doing things I like despite they are never productive, and I hate how I wanted to do things which people think is not worth doing. I might be spending summer in HK, although not full-time here and I really don't like how hot it could be and always crowded wherever I go. Maybe all I wanna do is spend time in Malaysia traveling around my country. I love my country. People say the country and government doesn't appreciate us, but I hope this will be changed someday. Unfairness is everywhere, so I hope (at least) there's a better reason for it: not going back into history digging some outdated laws out. Times have changed. It's time for a change.

Stay strong Nepal. 

It's hard to believe you are never gonna be the same as the year before.

Stay strong myself.

Tomorrow will be better.